Last night, I had to choose between getting 8 hours of sleep before my 8 o’clock class or stringing together 90 glowsticks to make my dorm room look like a club. I don’t need to tell you what I chose. MLIA.
“In life, we do things. Some, we wish we had never done and some we wish we could replay a million times. They make us who we are and, in the end, they shape and detail us. If we were to reserve them, we wouldn’t be the person we are today. So, just live. Make mistakes and have wonderful memories. But, never second guess who you are, where you’ve been and, most importantly, where you’re going.”—Unknown (via littlemiss) (via hippielove) (via thoughtsonasunday)
Was so much better than the first for various reasons but I have to go to sleep so I can’t write much. I’m ridiculously tired. :( Algebra II homework is evil. I prefer geometry because there’s less word problems or maybe it was just my teacher, but it seemed easier and I got an easier A so I don’t know but anyways. Part of the reason today was better was because I saw him while walking to 3rd period and said hi and he just nodded but later on I’ll tell you why I was so happy. Of course, I saw him which was still good because it’s been almost 3 months!!! I kinda wonder why I didn’t see him yesterday but maybe I wasn’t paying attention or something because today I definitely was. The classes were okay, in Biology we had 20 minutes leftover to talk and I actually talked this time so that was kinda sorta a lot better lol. HOPE/PE is still sofa king retarded and I still hate that class with my life. UGHIASHBASPOIHBAS. I have two slutty retarded bitches who sat in front of me today, non freshmen, who talked about me and obviously I would hear because I was right in front of them (facing them stupid seat design) and they were sofa king obnoxious. I will kick them in their invisible balls. But on the bright side, my friend who rides the bus with my crush told me he just randomly said “Oh, I saw Hill today!!” with the “biggest smile on his face, I’m not even joking” and that he didn’t reply because he was busy trying to hurry to his class. Lame excuses. But whatever, still made me day. Love you Nina! <3 Gotta jet, good night! :)
School started today and I’m sitting on my butt typing this and surfing Facebook while I should be going through my 10ft tall pile of papers I need to fill out and go over, and trying to make several decisions. One of the easiest decisions is when to go to Publix and what to eat for lunch tomorrow. Lol. Anyways, about eleven hours ago I was at school for the first day of the rest of my life. Scary stuff. High school. The campus is huge, and that mainly would be because duh, we’re freshmen. But honestly, it reminds me of the outlet mall. I kinda like the way it feels walking around and hanging about and eating lunch is fun. Except there are a LOTTT of disadvantages since you have to walk out in the sun between campuses, it’s outdoor so you can guarantee bees and whatnot flying about, maybe a cat. Yeah, because I saw a cat when I came to the school. Not when everyone was in the hallway of course lol. Plus when it rains? Lovely. I’ll be drenched in rain. So to start off with I went to homeroom right when I got off the bus. Actually, rewind. The bus driver was thankfully not the one I had last year so thank God. She seemed okay, let us eat on the bus, and made some jokes. So back to homeroom. We headed straight there once we left the bus, which was only 7:13 PM. Which is not good because that only leaves me FIVE minutes in the normal schedule to talk and chat. AIBSGPAIHGAPOS. Went to homeroom, picked up the “official” schedule even though mine didn’t change, and went to first period with Christine. Long walk and automatic detention for tardiness and I don’t exactly roll with that. Chorus was really fun, and I’ve always enjoyed chorus and Mrs. Delp was really nice. We didn’t even get finished with all our stuff though lol. So far, Chorus is BY FAR my favorite class. We’re having a movie night before the football game this Friday! :D Looking forward to it!! Then rushing to English Honors I, we had assigned seats. Only class we had them. This guy came in and he looked really familiar to me and I realized it was my old crush in 3rd grade and he moved after 4th grade. It was like karma or deja vu or something, seeing him again. I thought about talking to him but that is also, unfortunately, not the way I roll. Maybe if he sat next to me or I was paired with him, but whatever. My friend Stephanie who also used to like him saw him too so everything’s confirmed. Then 3rd period Algebra II Honors I know like 4 people in it and everyone else I don’t know and a lot of people are sophs and juniors. No one to talk to. Next is Japanese. It was funny and not bad, and the teacher has a heavy asian accent so it can be hilarious and my first embarrassing moment happened there. Everyone says it’s a hard class but I guess it’d be somewhat easier for me since I already know characters and another asian language. Still not sure though, considering I know only 4 people in that class, one of whom I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND and everyone else are weird guys. No suprise, I guess. I’m thinking about moving to French because I absolutely HATE my schedule. I have no classes with anyone and no one seems that great to be friends with anyway. Plus, I used to be sure about Japanese but now that I think about it what’s the point of taking 2 asian languages? I should take one European language other than English. I just wished they had Chinese because obviously that would be a no-brainer. Then AP Human Geography. The teacher is really funny and nice and it seems like an alright class academically wise, but again no close friends. I know 1 girl who I can talk to but I don’t know if we’d become close…Hopefully? Lol. No one else though. SOOOOOO many people that didn’t go to my school and are weird and from other schools and I’m wondering where they come from because there’s only one middle school zoned here and they’re all the same from my other classes. After that was lunch, and we sat with this big group so that was fine and talked but I mean lunch is only like 20 minutes. :( There was this big bee or whatever that was flying crazily around us and we were freaking over it. Hilarious. :D 6th period Biology NO ONE. ABSOLUTELY NO ONE. Hated that. Only 4 guys, lol. Small class too. 7th period, PE/Health/Life Management called HOPE. The teacher wasn’t bad, but the classmates?? WORSE THAN 6TH PERIOD!!!! Not to be offensive at ALL, or racist in anyway but there were a lot of black, overweight girls. The truth, not trying to be rude. And non-freshmen considering there were only 4 freshmen including me. That I know of. I hate PE. That’s a class you NEED a friend. No one to make friends with really, maybe this one girl but I don’t really know. The guy who sat in front of me was kinda cute but I think he was sophomore, he was popular, and so that ended that. Lol. Basically, I HATE MY SCHEDULE TO DEATH BUT I ALSO HATE SCHEDULE CHANGES SO WHAT SHOULD I DO!!! HELP!!!! Should I change my schedule? Yes, yes I really should. But still indecisive like always. Not looking forward to tomorrow except for lunch and Chorus. :( And I want to ride home on my friend’s bus because MY CRUSH RIDES HER FREAKING BUS, THEY TALKED THE WHOLE RIDE, THEY WILL PROBABLY CONTINUE TALKING THE WHOLE RIDE, I WILL CONTINUE BEATING MYSELF UP, I HAVEN’T TALKED TO OR SEEN HIM IN ALMOST 3 MONTHS BUT WE USED TO BE FRIENDS, I MISS LAST YEAR, ASHIAOSHGASIA AND I’M SAD. :( :( :( Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. This. Sucks. Monkey. Butt. Now, to organize papers. Good day.
Wait, did I mention I need to change my schedule? Cause I so need to. Life sucks. End of story. I hate schedule changes but who knows. I need to make up my mind NOW. NOW NOW OWOWWOOWOWOW. I wish I could just see what would happen if I changed it and if I didn’t change it back, or change it to my freaking liking! LIFE. SUCKS. (Without you)
So, I haven’t tumblogged in a while. Only two days of summer left. And that’s counting today. :( Doing nothing this whole last week of summer. Maybe I’ll go to Menchie’s tomorrow? I don’t know, lol. The thing that’s really really been bothering me lately isn’t school though. Yesterday and the day before, I woke up and found a little bit of blood inbetween my teeth. First, it was one front tooth and the smaller one next to it, then the next day it was my two front teeth. I was like, haigahghasg?! And I’m really, reallllly paranoid, extremely. So I was searching all this stuff on google and panicking. I don’t know what’s up with it. It’s not a lot of blood or anything and I cleaned it and stuff but I’m still pretty scared. :/ I don’t think I have any gum disease or anything, and I took this analysis on the internet…lol. I know. Lame. Still pretty scary stuff. :( I think my retainer might be the culprit and its putting pressure against maybe a small cut I have on my gum? It didn’t bleed today when I didn’t wear it so…But obviously, I’m going to have to wear it again eventually. -____- aigobhsgisagias. Blaaaah. Moving on. So, I’ve been teaching myself how to play guitar. :D I’ve been playing for only a week but I know like 10 songs already. Two of my favorites is Catch Me (which I totally improvised) and Love Story. I still need to buy a capo, B string, and a pick. And work on bar chords (SO FREAKING HARD) and strumming patterns. I’d love a teacher but can’t afford it right now. School in two days. It’s so surreal but I guess I’m excited. Anything to keep me busy because I’m majorly bored right now lol. Finished with Three Cups of Tea, thank GOD. I still hope we don’t have a stupid assignment on that book of evil. (Ironic because Greg Mortenson is all peaceful and good lol but the BOOK is evil. Because it’s boring. And I had to read it. And it took me two months. Yeah.) Now, I’m halfway done with A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a Boy Soldier. That book is actually pretty good despite the bloodiness and gory parts to it. It’s really sad too. :( But a good book, although he’s not a soldier so I don’t get the title? LOL I don’t know maybe it’s further on in the book or something, or it’s like he’s witnessed everything and pretty much a soldier already. I want some gooood food. Gonna eat some chips and dip later. God, good food is junk food? Haha lame. Um. I’m SORTA excited for school. I’d be more excited if I weren’t so worry about my own freaking gums. :/ Blah I wish diseases didn’t exist. Life would be better. I’m excited to see everyone though. :D Liiike, a certain guy. <3 hehe. I hope my teachers are nice, I know that a lot of them are and like one or two aren’t as friendly. I have to walk so much though. And, I hope to make new friends. :D Of course, to have a good time as well. Cannot freaking WAIT until I stay at Elena’s house for 4 days and pig out. I thought about walking to Menchie’s but it’s too far away and it’d be awkward. I want a frozen yogurt machine. I learned that fro-yo was short for it while reading the Clique LOL. Which reminds me, I need to get the new book and read it. I love reading romance novels and those books I can’t stop reading because I WANT to read it. Pleasure books. <33 Of course, you don’t read sappy romance novels in high school. Unfortunately. Instead you read books about tea and war. aoisgbas. Still really worried and paranoid. I wish so much that I wasn’t so paranoid. Paranoia is like my weakness. :( SOMEONE HELP MEEE! Blaahahahah. I wanna be happy. :D Like, completely happy. :D Haha I sound like I have issues but I don’t. Okay. baaai.
P.S. Whoever reads all of this is my hero. Haha, but really you don’t have to. I tend to ramble then don’t want any to read it. xD Haha I know weird. Public blog much? P.P.S. Happy Belated Birthday to some of my favorite people! Joseph Adam Jonas <3 My favorite Jonas and husband. I can’t believe you’re almost legal! 20, wow. And Demi Lovato! <3 I love this girl so much. I’m listening to Falling Over Me. Her album is honestly, THE best I have ever heard. Beats out Taylor Swift and JB. Really, I’m in love with ALL her songs except for So Far So Great but that’s just a random bonus track lol. Demi Lovato deserves all she’s getting, except for the hate, and totally should be bigger than Miley and Selena. She has a phenomonal voice and Hayley Williams agrees. Haha. ;) P.P.P.S. I was gonna write this earlier but dude. Selena Gomez’s album cover SUCKS. I’m beginning to like Selena less and less lately. Why? Because everyone loves her almost ONLY because she’s pretty. Yeah, she’s gorgeous. Or she was. Cause her ugly bobbish haircut made her look less pretty. But honestly. People don’t like Demi because they think she’s ugly, and prefer Selena because she’s ‘hot’. I think Selena seems really nice, and she’s a good actor and if I knew her I’d probably like her more. But her music? PLEASE GIRL, STOP! I hate these Disney stars who are actresses and start singing because they can’t sing for their life. Singer turned actresses are somewhat better, and those who start out as both like Demi. However, I heard Selena’s song Falling Down and I have to say she just sucks. She can’t sing. I didn’t even recognize her voice. Even electronically altered she’s not a good singer. She’s not horrifyingly bad like Miley (LOL) but she’s not good either and I don’t think she should sing. Oh, and her album cover? Don’t get me started. Also- don’t go JAOISGHAPSIG on me. This is MY opinion and I like Selena, but I’m beginning not to. Don’t persuade me otherwise. On the otherhand, JB, Taylor, and Demi = <3! P.P.P.P.S. I FORGOT! I’m going to either an All Time Low/Hey Monday<3/We The Kings/Friday Night Boys concert or a Paramore/two other bands I don’t care about concert! Still haven’t decided. It’s in October. I need to decide within the next two weeks. I’m excited though! FIRST CONCERT. House of Blues. <3333 Gonna plan how to sneak a camera in. Any suggestions? Should I put it in a tampon box or something? LOL Or in my pants? Or shoes? Or jacket? TELL TELL TELL. Apparently my HOB is really strict about cameras. xD P.P.P.P.P.S. LOLOLOL this blog is so long it’s taking up my whole page. I’m gonna change my profile layout soon, when I’m not lazy. aiiight. Peace.
annoy the IAOHAPOIGHSPIGHSPGIHS out of me. (i used a more insulting word but decided to remove it.) not even joking. today two people are getting on my nerves. a friend, and my mom. yeah. a short vent. thanks.